What we say......loudly vs inside our minds

 Everyone does this. Let's just admit it. At least, I will just admit it. My inner me is screaming "NO!!" while in real life, I'm just like "okay!" Orrrrrr when I'm furious but wish to remain calm. I do what any sensible person would {no I'm anything but sensible at times}, I simply nod and give the person I'm furious with a bright smile and walk away, while also trying to stop the steam from coming out of my ears. Inside, I make my voice hoarse by shouting at that person. But it doesn't exactly get hoarse, because, well, it just happens inside my mind. But I do tend to break the dam and let all my anger flood the place. Then I feel as if nothing has happened because the backwaters of that dam are completely empty.

The funny thing is, sometimes people do accidentally speak what's going on in their mind. It can be something funny, creepy, silly, sad, or filled with anger. We never know. I do wonder about that point in life when technology so good that we can read minds. I do not want that point to come. After all, our thoughts belong to us. Once they leave our mind, may it be in written or verbal format, they are no longer ours. I do want to know what the person in front of me is thinking at times, but that's just about certain topics, or when I get a little extra curious... Although I wouldn't like to know everything. 

I even suddenly remembered that whenever I put on a mask, in public, I make faces at the people around me. May it be someone I know or just some random stranger. It's fun. But I don't exactly let anyone know what I'm doing. 

Another thing........................ At times we don't say the stuff inside our minds, thinking it would sound completely ridiculous. We even control ourselves because of the thought "Ah, what will he/she think of me?" Yep. Here I am finding my way and leading myself to the topic that makes me feel like writing till my hands hurt or talking till my mouth does. Peer pressure.

Hmmmm.......... Why are the things we think of and the thing we speak two very different things? Here are some reasons, along with their examples.

• Knowing that it isn't fit for the occasion. Your best friend is talking about something amazing that has happened in his/her life and is wanting you to listen and respond. Thoughts: Umm, something's stuck in your teeth! It looks really revolting when you talk. Real life: Oh my god, really? That's so cool!!
• Forgetting to say that. Someone is talking to you about something and that reminds you about something that you want to tell them. But they talk so much that you eventually forget. Thoughts: Ok, ok, get this over, quick! I want to tell you about that new store that opened near my house! Real life: Yeah, so I wanted to tell you something... I, um, I'll tell you later, I forgot...!
• pEeR pReSsUrE! Peer pressure. Thinking about that person's reaction to what you'll be saying. Wondering whether they will think of it as silly and going with the flow. Thoughts: That looks so good! I absolutely love it! Real life: Erm, that looks so bad. I hate it! Or actually the opposite of this situation.

And these are the common reasons. Basically, all the reasons I could think of.

But really, if we could ever record our thoughts, the book containing them might end up in the Guinness Book of Records! I'm not saying that we should express EVERYTHING that comes to our mind, considering the fact that those thoughts belong to us. As soon as they leave our mind, they are open to the rest of the world. 

I might update this post occasionally, if I want to add something more. I actually thought of this today itself while writing that other post about Junk food... Junk's place in the Trunks

Aaaaanyways, thank you very much to any person who has read this!!